You guys, this week I've been reading Jennie Allen's newest book, Anything: The Prayer That Unlocked My God and My Soul, and it has my thoughts racing and heart so heavy - in a good way. She talks about the prayer that she and her husband, Zac, prayed, surrendering every part of their being to Him, wanting more of Him, willing to give anything to Him, and how that changed their lives. I sat on the runway for 2 hours last night at LaGuardia trying to get back home after a short work trip to NYC, and besides the brief snooze I took (I bet you a million dollars my mouth was definitely hanging open, because I'm cool like that), I read this book the entire trip home. I have been highlighting a bunch on my Kindle, but this part in particular made me think of you all:
There is no escaping it. He is God, and if our suffering brings him the most glory, let it be.
-- Jennie Allen
Isn't that so true?! Not easy to swallow, sure, but PREACH!
In many ways, this site was born out of an "Anything" prayer regarding my infertility this past winter. I pleaded with God to help me understand why I had to be the one to suffer, what was His purpose? His plan? Why me?
As you can probably imagine, taking the vulnerable leap to start this site was not easy, and I wrestled with it for quite some time until I realized that I had to obey what the Lord was calling me to do. Sometimes I still stop and have a freak-out moment when I remember that everybody knows - EVERYBODY KNOWS! But it's okay. It isn't just about this life, and this life isn't just about me - it is so much bigger than my infertility, so much bigger than my embarrassment, so much bigger than me.
So, that's my Anything. This site is my Anything. And if I had to go back, I would do it all over again.